It's been a while since I dropped something here. Well, what do you know...it's a new year already...2012...supposed to be a great year for me...just because the year is the same as my date of birth. Little that I know that it's gonna bring more tears than laughter to me.
They say that everything happens for a reason. And am a firm believer of it too and always believe that Allah s.w.t. knows better what's good for me. But there were times last year when I questioned that thought. I mean...you don't expect that something doesn't worked out because it wasn't meant to be when the reason it didn't worked out is you're the one who stopped trying to make it work in the first place. Don't you think so? Maybe it will work out in the end...or maybe it won't...but the point is...YOU GAVE UP...YOU QUIT...and you're too f*cking coward to say it out loud...
I gave it my best to you...even though am new at it...I took the risk...gave it my all...
So I thank you for playing with my heart...I took really good care of it for 23 years...only to have it being played by someone like you. You know Adele...you should change your song...it should be..."Like hell I'm gonna find someone like you.."
I doubt that anyone would be seeing my heart anytime soon. Luckily the stubborn part of me wouldn't fully let go of my heart. I guess I've been preparing for things like this since day one...but it still doesn't ease the pain...I knew it was too good to be true. If only I could turn back the time...am not gonna get my revenge...am just gonna save myself from the heartache...I'll distance myself from you...you will never gonna get to know me...my name will just be like a breeze that's passing by...insignificant...
So, just like that it ended...so much for my happy ending like Avril said...
Auf wiedersehen peeps...
